My old blueprint has gotten the best of me this week. I don’t know how mindless eating, Television, and breaking promises to myself is serving me. I have disconnected myself from my tribe and did not do one polo, who wants to talk about failing again. It is painful to even type this. I regained 9lbs and feel so sad. I don’t get how this old behavior serves me. I didn’t even do my service this week and now the service card shows I did not keep my word. Should I make a new card? Change the date ? I don’t know. This sad feeling is my mental diet going up in smoke as well.
What can I get this week? What are the lessons learned in this failed week? I learned that I need to fight for my future self as if my life depended on it because it does and she is worth fighting for. Every day I live the old way I die a slow death. I have broken many promises this week but the one promise I learnt I must keep is to never give up on the journey to obtain complete control over my mind. It is the solution to all of my problems.
No one is perfect and we will all have bad days however I learned not to make a bad day turn into a bad week. Bad days turn into bad weeks into bad months and into bad years. If given the gift of another day, hit the reset button and make it count.
Sometimes it all feels pretty old after all how many times am I going to restart, I have lost and regained the same 10-20 lbs. at least 3x from 2019 to 2020. I guess this is where prayers come in because I MUST change and if I don’t get a handle of myself within these 26 weeks, I doubt I ever can. One day at a time Andrea, I will apply the knowledge given, get to know my future self now and do my best to make her my best friend. These daily routines have to be added to my DMP to cement in my brain this new way of life. REMEMBER: I CAN BE WHAT I WILL TO BE.
Your Subby and I have missed you! Good thing is you have good habits calling your name and you are answering the call!
Lost and having a mental fight for life as I want. Yes, I am answering 🙂 Thanks
Hi Andrea! Many MKE students bottom out one or more times before ascending into the clouds where their new blueprint resides. As you know, it’s all good! Once again, I must recommend The Science of Being Well by Wallace Wattles. 🙂
I will take a listen, thank you so much for the recommendation.
You’re very welcome, Andrea! 🙂
You most certainly “can” be what you will to be and it’s all good. Your awareness of it all makes it simply beautiful. The journey is the journey and with increased awareness, these temporary detours are to be celebrated. Just love yourself as the Universe certainly loves you. 😎
Celebrating the temporary detours is some good food for thought. Thank so much for reminding me that I am loved. So many layers and bad habits I sometimes forget. Thank You.
Andrea, that was very courageous and strong from you to write this blog besides how painful it was! Thank you so much for your vulnerability! Yes you are worth fighting for!!
Remember that each day you have like each one of us a brand new account of 86,400 sec to use! Yesterday is gone, nothing you can do about it except make today different and at least little bit better! Your subby wants to keep you where you are, to “protect” you, it is not failure. If you look at things differently, things you look at change …. I’d love to be mastermind partners, would you?
Yes that is very insightful to think of subby of trying to protect me. That is the very I ask, why so much resistance to good! Thank you so much. Yes, I would love to mastermind with you! I am feeling so blessed.
Andrea, good for you, for realizing that you must fight for your future self as if your life depends on it because it does. You have the inner strength to win this fight. From your blog rover friend.
Thanks John, I am taking out the boxing gloves. 🙂